Week of April 4th,2004 thru the 11th: Digital Life Woke up and brushed my teeth with an electroid ray Took a shower under the milkyway Ate my bits and bytes then headed out that shuttle to somewhere Got in my ship and speed  past death and love to the veins of a robot to the brain of man.. ...this is my digital life.   Party Girl Say you know me well but you don't I see in inferred I may not smile I may not hang with the crowd But when the lights are off and I'm alone theres two I like to spin the funk I'm a DJ I have all the right vibes Put your feet up on my couch Forget what you see Cause when I'm alone I party Rave for one Even as I say this there's a party  As long as you ain't watching it's cool Forget what you knew I love the nightlife Fastcars are in my eyes Peace signs are my creation I'm a hippie So if you thought you knew you knew who? I like to sing I dream of the stage life I want a crowd of fans like you have with you Wait I already do!   Institute Of Hate Oh no who drugged me? World is spinning and crime everywhere My undoing cause I can't live my life on cloud 10 I can't win Who is that over there? A begger A man with black skin and no money He gives me away as a sinner Who's that on the phone? A criminal-minded friend She calls me friend as long as I lie Writing on the wall and the politic have cursed me Scars on my feet from the battle in my bedroom Fighting with my twin in my mind Hide me past nine and eleven Dust and stone grave after she gave me a warning to run Why they looking at the sky? There was a man smiling But I see red sky and the sun is black Who cast the first stone at the children? Oh no I'm wasted again Offered me a gun but I shot Jesus and not the devil Don't understand Who is saying they love me again and they don't? A man with no heart that beats He doesn't feel so he wants me to feel for him I can't even feel happy Who is hating? We all hate in this place No doors No walls No exit Just a big space you call home.   Alien I have green skin I have cat eyes My face is a TV Yes I get every channel Wanna see? I can make you bark like a dog if I blink My ears are speakers I have 1 trillion songs that I can play When I laugh it sounds like a symphony My fingers are phone cabels and everthing else see? Plug N Play My belly button is bluetooth ready I'm a geeks dream toy My teeth are piano keys A neverending grin You built me.   We All Are Artists   Draw me a picture Sing me a song Snap me in a frame Why do few write checks and others never find that rapture? Dance to the musicical beat Rap to the poetry in your soul Write a story Why we can't colab when we meet? We all are artists in gods kingdom come You,me,her,and him But we are virtual enemies Jealous of the others originality But it only matters if you are those destined some.     Nappy And Happy Nappy was a brown boy with all the ladies Happy was a white girl with all the guys They had a love jones,had a child and it's name? Hope Hope for the futre to be Two nations... ...one PROUD identity!   Thick Sister She stands at the bus stop Five feet seven,three hundred pounds of pride Skin like milk chocolate and not much to hide Damn Hair like ravens feathers hang around her neck Sex appeal that will make you say "wow what the heck?" She wears bright colors; on parade Red and she's Koolaide Purple she's Barney Orange she's the sun so shiney Childish fun To her it's a loaded gun And no man to call her "my boo" Instead folks laugh at her so true She's a gental giant with a heart of gold But she's dying from hate and looks so  damn ice cold Burgers and fries her obession Twinkies are her confession Who she be? Why this sister be me!   New poems for April 15TH.2004 to April 26th:   Accid Life Tendencies Ignored Wasted on the winds of time  Where are you?  Easily absorbed  I am a lie Nasty scars  White bloodcells creep  Heart is free Feel so wrong Esteem low  Jilted and deceived Killing me Making you  Bipolar tendencies  Her screaming in my ear now  A hand on my shoulder  Family ties strong but moldy  Yet it is so fragile  So meek  Faded pictures Tear-drenched wonders  Something wrong Strong made weak! New World Order   Forward march my army of righteous evil slaggard souls,your master has arrived Don't understand it Sit at my table and eat the little children then wipe your fingers on the sinners shirt This isn't a dream we see Hell is on earth Attention Salute thee high lord of damned drugs and fornication Better hide your daughters from those pretty-faced men a comin' The orders at hand Wings cut deep He tried to kill my child named heaven Weep No shelter in a church on that night Hide that soul of  yours Words from this golden child before I wake Ten hut Killing me with dirty eyes Order in sins court A demon loose? Grab the love you have while heaven falls into the sea If you think the earth is crying now wait The order is coming! Forward march my army of righteous evil slaggard souls,your master has arrived Don't understand it Sit at my table and eat the little children then wipe your fingers on the sinners shirt This isn't a dream we see Hell is on earth Attention Salute thee high lord of damned drugs and fornication Better hide your daughters from those pretty-faced men a comin' The orders at hand Wings cut deep He tried to kill my child named heaven Weep No shelter in a church on that night Hide that soul of  yours Words from this golden child before I wake Ten hut Killing me with dirty eyes Order in sins court A demon loose? Grab the love you have while heaven falls into the sea If you think the earth is crying now wait The order is coming!   X-Stacy(for those who die of Ecstacy use)   I came here to party I got an A+ today Mom said "be carefull honey and call me if you need a ride back..." Everyone would be there Walked in the place and it was like an orgy Uh oh you handed me Ecstacy "Don't do anything I wouldn't..." Music bumpin' And my crush and I are so hypnotic Doin it on this floor Time is nothing That must've been before I was laying on the floor and everyone looks so empty I can't catch my breath Is it supposed to hurt? Mommy I lied tonight I thought I was grown But I was an infant tonight An angel is calling me I see grandma Ambulence siren in my ear Bright lights and echoes my name Flatline "Here is our beloved Stacy. May she always be loved."     May 22nd,2004:   Sacred Ballerina There is a sacred ballerina in my soul She dances to a heartbeat Ding,ding,ding,ding Paralette and Croule She never sleeps Perfect steps Swan Princess and Le Champagne Madame Twist,turn,split,and grace Neverending showstopper Not a grin on her beautiful face Empty room Bright windows show Newyork city And a mirror with no reflection Dance to her doom. Cherokee Soul My dad would tell me about my great-grandparents One was 50 The other 70 But here I am with 25 My hair is only straight when wet and my skin is a dark reddish brown My pow wow for one in my mind Ever trying to connect the black and red I see an Eagleboy in my eyes and a Sundancers shadow Drumbeats are my breath I have a soul of two nations in me.   June 1st,2004:   ODE DE LE' BLEU SUCH SPIRTUALISM IS IN  YOU THE ESSENCE OF PURPLE AND RED WALK TOGETHER SOMETIMES GREY SLIPS THRU TODAYS COLOR? VENICE WITH A TOUCH OF RAIN BLEU IS A RACE NEITHER ALIEN,HUMAN,IT OR OTHER A MELLOWED VIBE FOR A MELLANCHOLIA SOUL THE SKY'S MASS IN HEAVEN AQUA TO THE LIPS UNDER THE SKIN AND BONE OF VEINS OLD OF VIOLOETS AND THE BABIES NURSERY HYMNS IN THAT BOX MARKED "CRAYOLA" TRUE BLEU HAS NO REJECTIONS,NO PASS REGRETS IT IS A DEVERSION OF HERE AND SPACE LIKE WAKE AND SLEEP WAVES OF EVERLASTING SEE BLEU'S FACE? IT IS IN US THE CHILDREN OF EARTH IN EYES AND FEATHERS IN SENSES FOR ALL THEIR WORTH.   June 7th,2004: Indigo You Traveled past stars Arise past a journey of rhythm and time Drown in your eyes The colors green,brown,and hunnydew But you and your lost sensefull bliss Neither happy or sad but more or less waiting on grand moments I can't draw the picture for sighing So walls go undone The grass becomes the hilltops The trees like pillers But you The deep blue sky Out of my reach But here just the same I ponder in places I want to hide in but it's a just a window They see a shameless flush Thorn in my belly Like ice bedded in fire But...you...Indigo. June 16th,2004: Mohogany Boy: Manifest your dreams (Written for Lorel) Say I'm holding you from your flow What did I do? Can I help? Pointing fingers saying your spirit won't grow no But you can't give up your fight It's you not me,don't blame it on me Look boy let your spirit fly right Stupid stuff got you contemplating I called lastnight but you don't call back I can do this tonight But if you need me I'm be waiting Just fly right Just sight Just shy right Just sight... June 21st,2004:   Queen of sorrow:Dark Angel My eyes were stingin and my mind turnin Should I celebrate or should I cry? This comes so...so easily My hands are numb And he done broke my heart nothin left I am that queen with no damn crown but thorns Woah,who is at my feet now? I'm tired go away All truths told But it all seems so cold to me Full like I ate a three-course meal Empty cause I speak before my heart feels "She's a wonder..." I wonder why you speak it Hoo hum I'm still chained to their chair of slander Lost because I'm not home I created a quiet storm for one Wanna drink from my sea? Written in stone Hard to believe I say this way Can't believe I am the first woman. Name? Eve Why are you at my feet child? Are you not welcome? I have nothing to stray to The breast be bold and heavy like a ships crest Go Shaken Bold and shaped in ambientness While my hair greys and I lay here stroking the moon's back Stay and give me my crown of eternal lonliness! June 25th,2004:   Linux: OS of the future No worries with bluescreens The OS of the future No pricetag or apps that nag Share away But you gotta ask is it what it seems? Gnome,KDE,and Fluxbox Redhat,Suse,FreeBSD,Debian,Mandrake  Oh for Pete's sake I've tried em all Some really suck Others rock Free as in speech Free as in beer Simple and easy All Windows and Microsoft know is it's out their reach! All About You I see you there reading me Oh but while you do I write me right you too Yeah Isn't that wild? Funny? I have a tear on my check touch your face Feel that Devine Yeah Isn't that sexy? Sensual I love your soul Deep like cells in our blood Like you'll be in me when we'll meet Are you laughing? Or burning? Candles that is I could make you while they break you Like a CD My mind be fruit for who's pickin' any? Get it? Are you smiling? Belly shaking Oh my Not Miss Badu but "my eyes are green cause I eats alots of vegetables.." Yeah Ain't that something? What I be smoking? Hunnydew Are you loving me or angry? I don't know Put em both together what do you get? Sex Oh I'm loving the berry It's at the bottom of a endless pit Are you happy? Do you get it? It's true Yeah Making you smile tonight on the phone Why? Cause I'm all about you! Dark Eyes Dark like Atavus eyes Coal and Cherry Coke Drink up Night in Zanzabar Some say full of lies But it's folklore What they say and whats in my dark eyes Chocolate syrup in a bowl with grape juice on the side Eyes that read "less is more" Can I hide in them from you? Won't hold your glare Deep brownish black with cherries jubilee The angst and lust joined in ecculsions true Fear and reason battle in there between pupils and iris Doorway to my disenchantedness Satans erotica bliss Dirty is a dirty selfless plight In my dark eyes Can't capture Make a wrong creation become right. Fallen Angel From the warmeth above to the cold below I fly past you like wind too fast to see So beautiful but so gone Now she sits there in a caffee with no name drinking tea I have no name And everything looks strange A bus speeds by and a little boy almost got hit But I sit here in my nakedness with cold tea and dove wings No shoes,no shirt,but I got served I look out again at the New York skyline I see a man formilar He's with a lady in red They smile so happily But here I sit with my cold tea Cold because I am cold to thy lips She's in the bathroom Looking at her aged yet ageless grace My wings itch But I can't reach them I am the only one here this morning. June 30th,2004:   Me and some fellow poets decided to colab on a few the last two days. And here is my opertunity to share them with you! Enjoy! Owl (written by Little Crow and Trinette) I stand here in a grassy field that my brother's once died on Time slips me Tonight a new one done come,a new spirit born Owl I sway left and then right My wings are short my my eyes see all I see all things and obsticles in my sight Owl Who goes there? Who disturbs my rest, my thoughts? Who makes that sound I hear? The chief's eye I sit here on a branch my mother's planted for me Eo'hoah Nenah  I am the owl,I am the chief,I am who I was meant to be. Share: Tommy (Written by Sarra Wright and Trinette) My brother should share his toys with me right mommy? He has a GI Joe with Kung Fu grip I told him, "see my Lil Pony. For you. Ain't it cute Tommy?" He'd throw my good Barbies in the trash So I'd put his favorite water gun in the toilette But his life wasn't meant to last AIDS took him away from us That was ten years ago to the day I never learned to earn his trust So here I am at his grave stone Dear Tommy I kept your GI Joe and your water gun Mommy said share, and I see so up there with god your not alone! Mr. Sexyman: Oh no! (Written by a fan from J Mans World and Trinette) I can't stand to look in your eyes too much Oh no! I see the lust in them and I drown to death Everynight I cry and yearn for that touch Oh no! How far are you from me? Five states away too far Run my fingers thru my own curls wishing they were yours I was at a bus stop saw a guy who looked like you in his car Oh no! Now I'm on the messageboards looking for you Are you near? You're my sexyman to me too Uh oh! When I taste your lips Put my hand on your chest I dream of us joined at the hips Oh no! It's hot in here and I have Rockyroad But the road be rocky looking at them eyes If I post this picture my computer will explode(like me) Uh oh! I'm too young for these thoughts so Wanting you makes me feel full grown But where you lead baby I'll go Oh no! July 2nd,2004 to 15th: Disturbed by emotions:   Aboriginee Wild From a dirty wood Sun beams down on clay our blood ancestor I was free I was an aboriginee They come steal it good My brother's house and bones Place was an oasis Then go white faces Now raped my mother and killed my boy Dideradoo plays these angry tones Take it away Boomerang comes back but my pride be gone I'm on my own Say we indian but we be black In the bush I'd rather stray I am wild Living in a tree Eatting kangeroo jack Was a man. The faulty Daughter of the dust Get no rest at best Mind is always churning So ashamed but honored And craving the lust When you do these things reach condemption And can not speak for sighing In dreams I am flying away my life Old clues and past dues Racial and community rejection They don't trust her My twin and dear friend Silliness on their part got no future from the start So damn jealous of my name I've caused a stir... Babylons Child Float way little lovely It's gone my dear Rest on waters thy ship Lush like Vegas strip Old stories gone unspoken And plan is unwritten As you walked thru that door there was a place Babylon in your smile City ungrown in a mile I see the desert life as I close my eyes Mind spoken Dishonor me with your words All the baby wanted was a new tit Silent fit We are the child of Babylon See it in the childrens eyes All they have is broken lies War drums rining in my ears Fighting the flesh Spills down like blood in a drain Moral pain Babylons gone Black Sheep I I am not too innocent to know And you can't break whats broken I be an outcast child Mudblood I am born under the sign of the sheep and Black Thrown to earth Ba ba black sheep no I don't have wool Don't tell me your sorry and you don't know I need a shepard to keep me from straying Want real but you can't handle my truth Not desired but gracefully inspired by nothing Don't come near Thy I pretty sheep I desolate and procreate verses Wolf be in sheeps clothing again. She came to me: Past,Present,Future I wished to see myself in my own and spy She flew away in dreams Ran around the neighborhood with a knife at my neck Why? Pondered the thought of if a child can have my face She walked by the bedroom window wearing purple Opened the door and their a ten year old girl stood But she was affraid of me then Voice like wine but she believes the nonsense spread 'round 'bout me Sigh Now I want to find the infant me before I die The cold eyes calling I'm an entity's pie Where does she defy? Why did I see these things? Why? I asked it Wished it come to me I should close my mind and open my mouth And in the mirror cry. July 28th,2004: Last Days: Siren Call Got 1,232 days left in the feild sweatin' They were  wanting to  be bettin' God sent his angel called "the first cherium of sight" Nine-thirty at mornings night Never saw it comin' The last days Better ways gonna come runin' Born just like you in flesh and sperm like you Never knew,knew never knew You all do like it's a lover's woo Killin',beatin',sexin',corruptin' That's it's power It's not the devil,nothin' An angel baby an angel born of might Have you seen the sight? Listen to it before you cry Carress it when it warns you wry She's me,she's you,she's us,she's now,she's  ever more He's dust,he's dawn,he's my,he's torn,he's opened  the door Bibles name is yours "Holy" Better believe in the stars in the sky and not in your TV and radio Uh oh there your body go She's me,she's me,she's me,she's,me damn you! Told me to warn why you freak out These are my last days burnin' true.